Welcome to Various Orchid's
Welcome to Various Orchid's
Your head spins,
as the moon rotates around the earth.
Lay your head to rest,
though the depression stays awake,
like the caffeine of a thousand cups of coffee.
A weight on my shoulders,
a lump in my throat,
the darkness is upon me,
the worst kind of coat.
It keeps out no wind,
and brings me the cold,
takes me away,
does not let me be bold.
It holds me back,
and keeps in the fear,
not allowed to be there,
I must stay here.
By: Orchid
Dreams
Hope
Aspirations
Wants
Needs
Life
Family
Friends
Myself
Your word is final
I sit unwinded
Like your perfect porcelain doll
No song sung
No tune to hear
Cracks concealed
Filled with rubber glue
You wind me up once
in a blood red moon
You let my tune play
Smile
Dance
The winding, turning key stops
Silence
When it’s just you and you knew it always was but there’s those moments where the reality weighs you down.
And that feeling of being a singular person in a plural world hurts so damn much!
I saw a raven on my way to the marathon,
It fed on dead flesh and fresh blood,
I saw a raven on the way to a marathon.
And she sat there,
Wheels turning,
In conclusion of her own life,
And her own misery.
Realizing that happiness was a child's game,
Happiness was a fantasy,
Fantasies are for stories.
Tears streamed and she couldn't stop them,
flowing for days of endless pain,
and yet the wheels keep turning.
Almost there
HA! I kid myself
Never going to be
Don’t try
Efforts are wasted
Enough
Lacking
Soon enough
No
Trying
Can’t breath
What is happiness
Wasted on me
Love me
Why bother
Be gone
And free
In the darkness, I find you
I am not afraid
Hypnotizing brown
Lips embracing
Horror, Fear, Pain,
You don’t scare me
You have my soul in your eyes
I need your promise, forever
Reading, writing,
Passionate love making
Touch me with your fears
I am your advocate
Cut me with your salivating blade,
I ooze
Fill me with your medicine
Sanity, Normalcy, Shame,
Not likely
One bleeding heart,
Four simple stitches of life
Holding together my decaying organs
No one is you
The flirty glances
Kisses of love
Longing
Intimacy kidnapped
No ransom in words
Passion out of sight
Why
If not to gaze upon my blank nudity
Blankly
More tears shed
No touch
Alone
The moon over our sky,
we share,
but our love is
beyond the infinite space!
I stay for hope, I stay for love, I stay for our future and to feel above.
No matter the pain, the work or dedication,
I stay because my heart wouldn’t survive the suffocation.
So no matter what, here I stay, your happiness is my happiness in every way!
I saw a beetle
as big as a plum
green, like money
that pays for your happiness
Envy, sweet envy, BEETLE!
going septic
in your pink ice cream
My pink ice cream?
i chose vanilla!
Hurry up and bleed
no
first, plead
Your guilt is undeniable
hanging me with
your wasted minutes
My time is no longer
of value to anyone,
including myself
I whisper to him,
live another day,
so I may die later,
She can’t leave,
or I will no longer
exist in my brain
Sugary words of forever,
that I am prediabetic for
The purple orchid
that has bloomed the same
bud, three times over ten
and the fourth on the eighteenth?
Squashed.
afraid
aged at eight
trusted adult
perverted secret
no, not accepted
locked in, cannot run
have to endure
bravery
smell of sweat
taste of salt and insanity
vile
three times the age
a thousand times the disgust
over in minutes
lingers forever
if I wrote you a letter,
would you listen to the words
when does numb
stop being so painful
why is everything
so wrong
hopes and dreams are for everyone
but me
wanted:
a forever commitment
needed:
not a hard request
blood stained tears
blacked veins
injected love
infected life
fibrogren’s
haunting past
cannot remember
There are people here that want the world to burn
and I warm my hands by the fire
I don’t want to watch the world burn
I want it to bloom
be beautiful
full of love
Those who allow themselves to burn in it
are responsible for their own actions
I just want to positively change one person’s day, everyday
That is a great day!!
there are people here that want the world to burn
and I warm my hands by the fire
forever in the background
burning spotlight
judging unacceptable
humble down, humble down, you stupid clown
read the fine print
i came with a warning label
you just won’t take the time to read it
hesitation for his circumstances
continue on
a caress, soft slow
down my spine
It's alright,
don't stop
gradually a kiss
electricity,
buzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
never end
take me
i am now forever your's
longing complete
craving extinguished
more,
forever more
Your pain is hidden within the confines of your beating heart
And as the world looks upon you they do not see a pained soul
But a forced smile, a smile that took the strength naturally for your daily tasks
Now you must use your reserved strength to get through your day
Optimism and positive thoughts can only get you so far into your daily routine
You try to stand, to fight the urge to scream, the urge to cry and all so others will be happy
True strength doesn't come from fake smiles and optimism
Strength is not at the bottom of a bottle or the end of a needle, inhaled with ease or in a bet
Real strengths is in your willingness to survive, want to live and in the support inside and out
Fighting cancer, addiction, abuse, pain, a broken heart, any disease and the negativity in this world takes the strength of yourself and those by your side.
Home,
Marriage,
Lifetime,
Together,
Love,
Trust,
Dedication,
you?
Broken from part pain
The honors she has endured
Walls of concrete, marble, and steel
Stubbornness her only defense
Hatred, racism, and blame still deafen her ears
Last boy’s scraps and trash
Heart of gold, surrounded by thorns
She stays independent and strong
Longs for real love
A husband to share her life with
She will never be a wife again
Damaged and broken is never enough
Weeping for sweet relief
In a constant state of pain
Physically, emotionally, mentally gone
Her beauty fades with her hope and her life.
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